Thursday, February 02, 2006

I Feel So Alone

That stupid feeding tube connection finally bit the dust tonight. It began leaking so bad that when Wyatt sneezed it would back up and spray stomach fluid onto his face. I had no option - I took it out because I know from the feeding tube before this one that there's nothing they can do once the connection is compromised.

I don't want to go to the hospital tomorrow. I've already had 3 appointments this week. I have to stay awake and feed Wyatt every 3 hrs and he still won't reach his daily goal - plus I have to pump. Eric has gone to bed so that he can get up for work at 5am. Its too late to call anyone - I'm not sure what I'd say anyway - all I want to do is cry! I am so frustrated. Some days are so good and other days I feel so defeated.